You're no longer an Officer. You handed the badge and uniform back and now you have to face the reality of re-entering the community as a civilian. For many former members, this will present mental challenges that you may not be equipped for, or ready for.
Bronie and Sean both struggled mentally. Very few people understood what it was like for them. People tried to help, but if you've not been through the battle yourself, it's hard to know what to say or how to support someone facing their own battle.